| okkk... i have a moral test coming up soon, and i haven't studied. whahahaha... i'm gonna fail. 21 nilais. hahahah.. die die die die die die die. syira, syahida, izzat, alwi, azreen, shaz, all the malay people in my class have went on a field trip to this mekkah in m'sia thingy. they'll be gone for the whole day i think. oh well..
i sent an email. and i was so afraid of the reply, but he gave me a sweet one anyways. it hurts. he's over meeh. oh well. should known. i knew it. some where deep down inside of me. but still. ouch. it hurts so much to let go. i cna't let go. goddamnit!
good thing is, joanne preread my letter first. to get her reaction. she literally forced me to send it. and i did. without altering a single thing. and i'm glad i did. coz then now i know. it's not gonna take much longer. i'm finally slowly, gonna learn all over again, to let go, and let myself down slowly so that i wo'nt come crashing down onto the ground like i usually do. it's scary when i do that to myself. and it hurts, coz there's no one there to catch me.
wheeee... having ict now. not doing anything. ict replaced math, so next monday, there'll be math. scary. oh well.. i gtg now. i wanna reply that mail. and smile through out the day i guess.
heartaches and heartbreaks come hand in hand. when you lose someone important, then u'll understand, the pain of everything and everyone around, the people who have been hurt, many more times around.
i could never understand why people said they were inlove, till it struck me, that i myself was. the many definitions which people gave, were all acurate in their own way, but to me, it will always remain, undescribable.
that is love in my point of view. |
